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http://missjackiebaker.livejournal.com/

i made a huge mistake.

goodbye livejournal.

shall all my memories be erased.

grady and i broke up.

im so sick of grady latley.
he never calls.
ever.
i always call him.
even when he says he'll call back he never does.
im so sick of this shit.
he got online and didnt even talk to me, he talked to rel.
good boyfriend huh?
and he doesnt even give a shit about me, or so it seems.
i went to kiss him today and he just sat there like an idiot and when i went to say goodbye and school he didnt even want to hug me.
i know i was being a bitch, but cmon its all his fault.

fuck.

a boy who cares and a boy who will call.

im so bored.

grady came over today. :)
we went to my aunts and burger king.
and than i went to his pep band thing today.
i got to drive home :).
im fucking tired as hell.
i dont think ive ever been this tired before haha.

fucking assholes.
so i was sleeping right
sound fucking asleep at 2 in the morning and my fucking bitch of a sister comes in my room blowing her fucking whistle thing and shoots confetti all over my fucking room.
and i have to go get the vaccum at 2 am and fucking vaccum up this shit which is exactly what i want to do when i first wake up at 2 in the god damn morning.
im so fucking pissed off.
the bitch shouldve cleaned my room not me.
so im sitting here crying because im so pissed off and i have to clean the fucking confetti up, i didnt fucking ask her to do it.
actually i screamed at her to get out of my room and she fucking did it anyway.
fucking bitch i hate her.

well, im glad i have the best boyfriend in the world :/

so, last night i had relish, tyrome, trizzle, denaynay, gravy, and jon over.
it was alot of fun.
i finished drivers ed today. i got an A in the class. go me.
not much else to say. byee.

david came over today.
we talked about his problems.
my problems.
i like talking about stuff like that.
it intrests me.
thats why i want to be a psycologist. :)

adam came over at 9, we watched band camp it was pretty funny.
good movie.
he left around 11. it was fun.

Merry Christmas Everyone.
and Happy Chanukah. since it starts tonight and all.

♥

last night was homecoming. it was the best night ever.
i had so much fun with grady.
i really love that boy. no doubt about it.

 

( homecoming pictures. )

tonight was homecoming game. i spent it with grady, it was so much fun.
i love him so much.
i cant wait until homecoming tomrrow.

today is mine and gradys 2 month :) wooo.

so my dads all like "theres no point to working where i work" and my moms all like"well than quit your job and we can move back to ny" and encouraging him and so on....and i really dont want to move.
i have my "friends" here, and i have grady.
this sucks so much.
my moms like "well were hitting our 4 year mark, and we never live in a house for more than 4 years time to move" and im like shiiiit.

what the fuck is the point in moving someplace when your just going to move away, im sick of this shit, ive gone through it my whole life, ive moved 7 times and when i move its not like i keep in touch with everyone. theres no fucking point in making friends, "yeah ill let you stay here for 4 years, be best friends with people and when times up, ill tear you away from there" nice plan mom and dad, your awesome.

fuck this.

I wish today...or everyday could be like yesterday.
i spent the day with grady.
and we went to the park, and layed down on the picnic table, and that was about it.
i like being held by someone who loves me.
its a great feeling, and i wish i had that everyday.
i will soon.
im getting my permit this winter break, so by summer i'll be able to drive.
and i'll be able to be held by someone who loves me any time i please.
:)
i really like grady. i hope he lasts.

so yesterday was the best day in the world.
i never hang out with my friends.
but i had tara and rel over and it was so much fun.
we danced like black girls.
my mom told us we were the whitest people shes ever seen.
they cleaned some of my room.
we went to mars and back in our secret tent.
watch out for space monkeys.
and we had sex ed.

ohh it was amazing.

and as for grady, i really like him.
he always sends me text messages like "i love you so much....." and so on.
its really cute.
he makes me really happy.
i just hope he doesnt turn out like the others.
although he is a really jealous person.

i thought tom wouldnt turn out like the others, but he did.
so i cant say that i think grady wont because obviously i was wrong.

out of all the boyfriends and whatever.. i have to say aj was the best person i have ever met.
hes really quite the amazing one.

well, im back from disney world.
it was an ok week.
i had a good time, i had a bad time.
i wish i could say more.

:(
so, my cousin Jay had this friend james. and he died yesterday.
its so weird.
ive never known anyone that has died.
i mean, i wasnt friends with him but i talked to him and i knew him and stuff, and i danced with him at my cousins wedding, i played pool with him, he used to come over with my cousin and stuff.
he was a fun guy, he was cute, this freaking sucks.
he just got back from iraq about a month ago.
and he freaking dies.
he just got out of the marines.
and he got into a motorcycle accident and hit a tree.
its so weird knowing hes not here anymore.
he was pretty funny.
he was only 20.
that has to fucking suck.
wow.

R.I.P JAMES <3